I always tell people I'm afraid of everything... if I had a life mantra it would be - if you're scared of something, do it anyway. Sometimes I do things because I'm afraid of them just to prove myself wrong.
I wrote this new song called "Anxiety." I think it's an interesting thing to write about because it seems like such a topic of conversation today. I feel like every time I open up my computer or look at facebook on my phone, there's a new terrifying story on my feed... things happen and we have no idea why... and we have to exist in the world without having a complete understanding of why things happen... things going right or wrong... we try to anticipate things, but can't ever predict or fully control what will happen in a moment. Everyone tells you to let go and sometimes that can be the hardest thing to do.
Some people don't totally understand anxiety, but it's been something I've dealt with for a really long time...and I can be pretty good at acting like nothing's wrong. However, it's not the case all the time. And it's scary even just to be this honest about it on my own blog, but ... whatevs. ;) so, here's the song...
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Location: Nashville, TN
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My friend Hilly, sent me a video of Gabrielle Aplin performing and I fell in love with her! She's such a wonderful artist. I started listening to all of her music on Spotify and found beautiful videos on YouTube too!! She's super cool and you should check her out.
Here's my cover of her song, "Please Don't Say You Love Me"
Being in the studio was so therapeutic this morning. Something about focusing on just the sounds and the groove and working together as a team is so nice.
We had my buddies Mitch and Brad in today on drums and bass, with Brad Hill engineering.... it was so fun. The songs came together quick too.... it was so cool because we did it piece by piece, rather than having everyone in at one time.
Before I get to work I have all this nervous energy and then once we're going... it's like it all goes away for those hours. I literally lose track of time. I've been wanting for things to move faster and have trouble going with the flow... but today it was such a good feeling to be in the studio working the songs out. hearing them come to life and feeling a little weight lifting off knowing that they were being worked on...
and working together is the best part... it's like this collaborative effort and is the best feeling in the whole world.